A challenge

 

First of all… I don’t normally do this.

I have heard that the world as we know it ends in 17 days. In case this is true, I just have to put this out there. 2012 is/was (depending on when you read this) a good year. For one I am alive, hale and hearty. There are a lot of people who started with us and are no longer here. There are others more languishing in pain on hospital beds. There are yet others who are trapped within the confines of prison walls however innocent they are.

This year I lost a friend barely 2 weeks before wedding his soul mate. How it happened is still a mystery as he just complained of a tummy ache and slept in the Lord within 30 minutes of reaching the hospital. Emmanuel would’ve been happily married this month and I’m sure he had envisaged a lifetime of bliss with his heart throb. This life is filled with pain and sorrow. This same life, not another is filled with joy and gladness. Ups and downs, topsy-turvy.

See, if you met me for the first time this year chances are you met me at the lowest ebb of my life. Forget that I put up a brave face and probably laughed with you & had fun. Deep inside I have been unhappy. Everything had to be managed. Up until now, only a few people knew this.

“If you wish to achieve worthwhile things in your personal and career life, you must become a worthwhile person in your own self-development.” –  Brian Tracy: Self-help author and motivational speaker.

Anywhere I go, people like giving me responsibilities. It’s like they just see my face and think to themselves: “Yes. Lay it on Lanre’s shoulders. He can do it.”

I changed jobs twice this year. The first time it was to doing something entirely new. I was head of marketing and business development for a fast growing ICT coy. During the interview process, I never knew I’d get the job because on my cv I had never even done anything relating to marketing/biz – dev before. So I just went in and did my bit. I got the job but I didn’t expect to be made Head of department. For the umpteenth time in my life I was thrust in the deep end & I had to either swim or drown. Why they offered me the position, I don’t know. Why I accepted the position, I don’t know. I guess i just had something to prove to myself. That i could face any challenge headlong without faltering… Maybe.

I just went in and did my best & I will be honest with you guys, it was pure struggle. The pay wasn’t worth the stress and the pressure (at least compared to my previous pay) and a whole heap of shit kept being dumped at my doorstep. I wanted to quit so many times to just go wait at home but some people whose opinions I consider helped me to move on till something better came along. Thank you guys, (you know yourselves.)  I hurt some people this year, albeit taking out my frustrations on them and straining our blossoming friendship(s). I’m sorry and I hope we can be cool again someday.

Then an opportunity came along and within 2 weeks I was back to doing what I love. Another job change; career back on track; change in my pocket; no haters (yet). Still no girl, my forever alone ass stays being forever alone…

In all this, I am thankful I went through the fire. It has helped me in my personal self-development and will positively impact on my career someday hopefully. I thank God for some of the people I met. I have come across some really ignorant people too and if for nothing, I have learnt to thank God for the little knowledge I have. Life is hard people but this same life is also sweet. Struggle is not necessarily a bad thing. Steel as

Then this year, I met a girl.

Yeah, yeah I meet a lotta girls but this one is just different. As to whether she will read this I don’t know, but I really like this one. The fact that I met her at a place I wouldn’t normally meet people I should like this much leaves me all the more befuddled when I think about the circumstances. Feelings that were not supposed to be caught have stuck but yeah, she’s that special. This one has made me lose all my super powers. I’m still single and everything but I really wish my world as it is (in that regard) ends before the Mayans’ prophecy get us.

I’m serious.

Then thanks to my family for their support and ever fervent support. Thanks to my Susheys too. You guys are the awesomest!

“AIN’T NOBODY FRESHER THAN MY CLIQUE.”

I mean we’ve had our own problems this year but we have always come out unscathed and true to the game.

Love you guys, no homo.

Sushey out.

 

N.B The struggle hasn’t allowed me write too many posts this year, I apologise. Expect one more Sushey classic before this year runs out. I promise.

I will now go ahead and post this without proof reading before I change my mind about posting it.

I’m gone for real this time.